Monday, October 21, 2013

I've Been Slacking Off

My life has been crazy in my point of view anyways. I have been on the hunt for a job and it has been stressful. So it has driven me to eat more than what I should. I find myself comforting myself with food after everyone goes to sleep at night. Nothing is sacred in this attempt to satisfy my need to snack either. It could be something that I bought for myself or it could be something that I bought for my son to eat.

My late night snacking never seems to end up with me eating something good for me like a salad, or some fresh fruit that is in the bowl on the counter. I find myself asking questions like "What am I really craving?" or "Am I looking for a specific taste?" or "Am I just looking for crunch?"

Sadly the individual servings bags of Animal Crackers (which could be regular, iced, or entirely frosted) usually ends up being my go to snack until I've ate them all. My son never even gets to open a bag. Yes I feel bad about it when I'm opening one of those little bags but I get past that feeling and just start munching. If anything in the house has chocolate in it, it's gone in a matter of a couple of nights and I'm looking for what I can fill my next snacking.

This last Saturday at my weigh in I was up into the range of weight that I had hoped that I would never see again. I am back up over 200 pounds. Not by much but it's enough. The weather is getting cool again. So I have to get cracking on what I'm eating because I want to be able to fit into all of my 16W jeans again without them being uncomfortable. I also just bought pants for my job search not long ago that are also size 16W. I can't let that money go to waste.

I find myself saddened by all the money that I have just continued to give to Weight Watchers. This program works when you follow the plan. It does. Really. But I have purposely stalled myself out and just keep handing them money every month. I could have been lifetime by now had I always stuck with it. At the same time I have to look at it in the sense of had I not been going to a meeting every weekend where would my weight be? How many times would I have come back to Weight Watchers?

This is the longest journey of my life so far. It has been a struggle. I am waiting for my break through so that I can get to lifetime. It's going to get easier when I'm the only one making the food decisions. It's going to be easier when I don't have to worry about the junk food that I didn't bring into the house. (I'm really proud of myself that I haven't bought Halloween candy yet, even though there have been some really good deals and coupons for it.) It will continue to be a journey even after I am in my own home, because then there are no excuses. I am the person buying food.

Do you have issues with night time snacking too? How do you handle your cravings? Let me know in the comment section!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Dolls, Dolls, and More Dolls! And an Update

This last week has been mentally very busy for me. I've been thinking about all of the different ways that I might be able to make some kind of income regardless of what I might end up doing as a day job. I just have this feeling like I'm going to have to do something else. I know that whatever I might end up doing myself I'm going to have to like it as a hobby at the very least.

I know that I already enjoy to crochet and to knit. I also wanted to try my hand at making doll clothes a while back too. These doll clothes could be crochet, knitted, or even sewn. Anyway I look at it I could do anyone of these things. And since I also have a bit of a background in jewelry making I could also make jewelry for the dolls too.

I didn't realize just how many different types of dolls are popular now days. I also didn't realize just how much people are willing to spend on a doll. I already knew of American Girl dolls that are 18 inches tall. I knew that Cabbage Patch dolls are also kind of making a come back. Then there is a whole other world of ball jointed dolls like Blythe Dolls and Monster High Dolls.

The Blythe Dolls have really caught my eye! I'm going to have to save up some money so that I can own one for a model of clothes and jewelry at least. Maybe they can be the next set of dolls that I work my way into.

As for the update this coming weekend is a job fair! I'm hoping to see if there are any employers that would be interested in having me. Then next week I am going to press on and start doing more Simply Filling meals to get me back on track. It's sad I started a Diet Bet and I've been ignoring my diet!

Talk to you more soon!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Simply Filling Week 2

The second week of me doing Simply Filling Technique didn't quite yield the results that I hoped for. But at the same time I knew that there would be a gain no matter what I tried. This last week was stressful with it being more than just myself at home.

I found myself eating out of comfort. I felt like the only way that I would feel better was for me to have something in my mouth. I tried to eat only things that were Simply Filling even if I was eating. That was probably my only saving grace. My gain wasn't a
terrible one. I only gained 0.8 this last week.

As you can see from my weight chart up there I need change. I need something to boost me onward to greatness. I am tired of looking at that 10% goal line. This weight chart is from when I first started at Weight Watchers until now. So 2 years worth of weigh ins. There was a whole year there in the middle that my life got in the way. THE ONLY REASON that I am not back up to my start weight or beyond was that I kept going to the meetings and half trying to stick to program. Weight Watchers works. I'm going to stick with it until the end. I am going to be a lifetime member.

I am going to try out a couple of new recipes this coming week and I'll post them as I try them. There is a Crock Pot Salsa Chicken that looks good that I can make sure is SFT and I'll let you know how it works out!

I also signed up for a Diet Bet so I'm hoping that it helps me stick to my goal. I'm going to have to lose 4% of my weight in the next 4 weeks. Maybe since I've got money on the line it will motivate me even more.

Have any of you ever done a Diet Bet where you put your money in a pot to reach a goal weight by the end?

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Simply Filling Bread

Today I thought that I would make some Simply Filling Technique friendly bread. I did it this afternoon an oh wow. Some good stuff right there. :)

Now as far as cooking and baking goes I'm kind of a newbie at it. I remember a few things from Home Ec. But not much. I don't remember my mom making bread at all growing up, but when it came to other baked goods like cookies, cake, and other yummy things from the oven, those were plentiful.

Alright. So here is the recipe that I found on the internet on 3fatchicks.com


  • 1& 2/3rds cup of warm water
  • 2 tsp of salt
  • 4 cups (650 g) of Cream of Wheat (farina/semolina)
  • 1 tsp sugar (There are no points in 1 tsp of sugar FYI)
  • 2 tsp of yeast


Put all dry ingredients in a bowl and mix. Slowly add water (because sometimes the cream of wheat absorbs it more than others so you might not need all of it. When I made it I did need it).

Knead it for 10 minutes. Divide into rolls, loaves, etc. Cover and leave to rise in a warm place until they have doubled in size.

For loaves place in the middle of a preheated 450F oven for 30 - 35 minutes. Cool on wire tray.

Instead of regular sugar I used brown sugar because I didn't have any real white sugar at home (and I didn't want to buy a whole new box of sugar). I put all of the dry ingredients in my Kitchen Aid mixer and mixed them up. Then I took the water and slowly poured it in while the mixer kneaded it with the bread hook. I let it go for 10 minutes. Another thing I didn't do was cover it while the bread rose on the cookie sheet. I was able to make 2 loaves of bread with this recipe. Next time maybe I'll have bread pans to put the dough in.

Making this bread was a lot of fun.

Have you tried making bread before? Was it a reduced calorie or a Weight Watchers friendly recipe?

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Simply Filling Chicken Fried Rice

I had a great week doing the Simply Filling Technique last week. I lost 2.6! Don't get me wrong there were times when I was wondering if I was going to be able to make it through the whole week but I managed to pull it off. I am going to continue with it this next week.

I tried some recipes that I hadn't before this past week too. The one didn't turn out half bad for me but one of them didn't agree with me. Though it might agree with you. The first one I did was a "mock" Chicken Fried Rice!

I didn't use that many ingredients this time around and I'll probably tweak it a bit the next time I make it. I used the following:

1 Bag of Steam in Bag Brown Rice (Publix Brand)
1 Bag of Steam in Bag Mixed Vegetables (Publix Brand)
2 5oz Weight Watchers Frozen Chicken Breasts (You can use what chicken you have on hand)
1/3 cup of Better Than Eggs egg subsitute
A couple of sprays of Pam
A couple of shakes of Low-Sodium Soy Sauce

I went about putting it all together the hard way (Is what my mom told me. Love you Mom!). I put the chicken breasts in the oven to cook for 35 minutes, when they come out I diced them.
As the chicken was coming towards the end of time to cook I steamed the brown rice and the veggies together. In a wok I sprayed it with Pam and then cooked the egg. Then mixed the veggies and rice in with the egg. When the chicken was diced I put it in with the rest then seasoned it to taste.

The next time I make it I will be using sesame oil, and some teriyaki sauce. Those might get it to closer to the flavor that I was looking for. It was filling and I was able to keep some for leftovers! :)

The other recipe that I thought that I would try that ended up with me having terrible heartburn was a Frozen Banana ice cream. I won't even go there with how I made it because I'm afraid of just thinking about it for too long will bring the heartburn back. I guess I'm just allergic to bananas and won't be eating them again because there wasn't anything in the ice cream but frozen pureed banana!

In any case thanks for following along. If you try making the Fried Rice let me know how yours turned out!

Monday, September 2, 2013

Simply Filling Day 3

I'm doing a good job so far. At least I believe I am. We'll have to see what the scale brings next Saturday but I feel like I'm doing okay.

I've been kind of shocked at all of the things that are actually power foods. Today after Church my family and I went to a Mexican restaurant. This was not planned on my part but should have been. I have my staple few dishes that I like to eat there so I didn't know what I should actually eat, because everything on that menu that I would have normally eaten I would have had to count the points because things are oozing with cheese and grease.

Today I looked in the salad section for the first time. I actually ordered from there. I got the 2 Pesos Salad with chicken. This is basically a giant plate of fajitas minus the tortilla shells. Oh man was it sooo good. Mixed lettuce, chicken, sliced green peppers, sauted onion, black beans, pico de giao, sour cream, guacamole, very light white cheese, and (what tasted like to me anyways) a balsamic vinaigrette dressing. Mmmm wow! I counted the sour cream, guac, butter (that cooked the chicken and veggies from the fajitas) and cheese for about 11 points. Best salad ever!

Now like I was saying before this salad was huge, and I am doing Simply Filling so there was not a chance in the world that I actually finished this whole thing. I wanted to eat it all because it was awesome, but I listened to my body's signals and stopped when it told me to.

I was able to get my activity goal done for the day too. So at least I got 1 AP today.

I'm starting to go through my house and pack things and get things that go with a "set" together so I can start putting them in boxes. At least I am feeling the packing bug. I know I have to go through so much stuff to get rid of because I have a feeling that I'm going to be moving into an apartment for a little bit of time in the least. I don't want to but I'm going to have to pull in some serious cash if I'm going to move into a house. I just don't know how people do it.

I have been looking for a job lately (because I'm without right now) and in order to move into my own place I'm going to have to have at least $15/hr to start to feel comfortable. I'll have to scrape even then to save money for retirement. I didn't used to have to worry about that because I was making close to $30/hr before I quit to be a stay at home mom. Now that I've been out of the job market for more than 3 years I'm going to have to pray for an awesome job to come to me. Pray for me or send good thoughts my way if you would!

Here's to another good day ahead. <3

Saturday, August 31, 2013

My Second Simply Filling Day

I walked a ton!
Today was a good day. I started out my day with my Weight Watchers meeting and found that I had lost most of the weight that I had accumulated in the week previous. Which was very nice. I knew that most of my gain was water retention and I wasn't that worried about it.

I had an Fuji apple for breakfast with a 16oz bottle of water flavored with Crystal Light. My day continued with no points used of my 49. I am already planning for tomorrow and what I'll be eating then too.

I have been jonesing for some spaghetti so I grabbed some whole grain/wheat thin spaghetti noodles and some plain tomato sauce and paste. I'll add my own flavoring tomorrow while I mix it up. I'll probably stop tomorrow after church and get some ground beef to go in the sauce too. 

I did a lot of walking today. I went to the mall to see if I could find myself another pair of shoes for the job that I will eventually have (no luck there), then kept walking a lap. Then I stopped and grabbed some new tea at Teavana (Moroccan Mint is very yummy by the way). Later this evening I went to Walmart to walk around and get organization ideas and to see how much I could figure I would be spending. I have to know what kind of house and space I'll have before I can even fathom buying any of this stuff though. In any case it helped me get some more movement in.

Here's to another good day tomorrow!

Friday, August 30, 2013

Starting to Do the Simply Filling Technique

I have been going to Weight Watchers for going on two years now (at least this time around) and I have been disappointed with myself. I have lost weight but with the stresses that have been in my life I haven't stuck to plan like I should have. I find myself making excuses and justifying to myself that I deserve some type of food item that I don't need.

I started back on September 10th, 2011. I weighed in at 224.8 pounds. I'm not ashamed to say it, because I never want to be there again. Ever. Last week I weighed in at 202 pounds. I totally destroyed my downward trend that started earlier this summer. I was in it to win. Then all hell broke loose. Now I'm looking at that 202 and I'm upset that I let it get that far.

I went up 4.4 pounds from the week before. It has taken most of this week for me to become totally disgusted with this fact. Because at the beginning of the week I was making excuses of "Well I had Chinese on Thursday (my weigh in is on Saturday mornings)." There were other excuses. People have started making excuses for me. That is the crazy part.

Okay so since I'm having a hard time keeping track of what I'm eating and I'm feeling restricted (which is stupid because you can eat anything you want on Weight Watchers Points+) I have decided that I am going to use the Weight Watchers' Simply Filling Technique. This Technique is exactly how it sounds. You eat until you're satisfied and you eat your 8 healthy guidelines. Very little processed foods at all.

The guidelines in no particular order are: 1) Drink 6 8oz. glasses of fluids (non-alcoholic), 2) Get 2 servings of low-fat or fat-free dairy, 3) Get 5 servings of fruits and veggies a day, 4) Take a multi-vitamin, 5) Get in 2 tsp of healthy oils a day, 6) Get 30 minutes of activity a day, 7) Eat whole grains instead of white when you can, and 8) Eat lean protein.

To be healthy adults and kids even we should be following these steps anyway. They are essentially the food pyramid that we were all taught in school. It is do able. You just gotta do it. Plan it. Do it. Perfect Planning Prevents Poor Performance.

I know that today is Friday and the last day of my week. I get that. I started a day "early." Why not start when it's the day I weigh in right? Well the other mantra is you can always change what you eat as soon as the next meal. You make your own choices.

Last night I planned as much as I usually do and I went to the grocery store. I spent quite a bit of money on fruits and veggies. I am sticking to this. No veggie or piece of fruit will get left behind. They are expensive and I'm going to get my moneys worth.

I'm sure that when I go to weigh in tomorrow morning I'll probably see another gain. I half don't even want to be told if I lost or gained because it's the past and it's behind me there is nothing I can do about it now.

I'm doing the Simply Filling Technique, and I am going to lose!

Also I still have items up for sale on eBay you might want to check out. Right now I have books and DVDs that I don't want to have to move. Next items to go up will be baby clothes.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Getting Back Into EBay

Hello again!

Lately I have been getting antsy. I am going through all of my stuff that needs a new home because I don't especially want to move it to where ever I am heading. If someone else can use what I have even better right? That's what I was thinking. I have been using eBay for a long time since 2008!

I really like using the service because I can get my books and items to other people that will use them! I have sold all kinds of books (because I am a bit of a bibliophile) and I just don't have the space to keep them. All of the books that I sell have been treated like they are my babies. Most if not all of the ones I sell are ones that on the paperbacks the spines haven't even been broken (a pet peeve of mine).

The other things that I have been posting are things that I no longer have a use for or I'm looking to get something different. If my items have something wrong with them I don't even like the thought of putting them up because why would I want to sell something that is defective?

When I put up a listing I try and put up as many pictures as possible with the item. And since the advent of the eBay mobile app it has made the whole process even faster! You can take pictures, add information, list, and share with social media. Awesome stuff.

Right now I mostly have up books and DVDs on my site. Feel free to stop by and take a look. Shortly I will be posting things like baby clothes and toys. I hope to see you soon over there. :)

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Butterflies...

Butterflies can flap their wings and create change. Just think of what you can do. 

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Can't Wait to Organize My Own Place

I wish that I had a place that was my own, so I could decorate it however I saw fit. Then I could have a fresh start at organizing everything. So that it could be a place that I called home.

Last night while I was out and about. I decided to make a trip into Bed, Bath, & Beyond. Right now since it is the beginning of August every place that sells stuff like BBB are doing college dorm sales. Which means they have everything that has to do with organizing and storage on sale. They have check lists out everywhere. To be quite honest it made me wish that I still had my studio apartment in Grand Rapids.

A Super Soft Footstool @ BBB
I was taking in all of the cool accessories and it made me wish that I could just buy it all. Only problem is that right now I have no place for it and I would just be moving it again anyways (probably into a space that it wouldn't work in). And since most of the stuff that is out right now seems like it's for college kids (and not quite my style) I'd still use the organization stuff.

I seriously want to get crazy about organizing stuff in my drawers. This is something that I've never really been. Before it's always been if it is in the drawer it's organized, or if it is in the closet it is organized. What I've come to realize though is that those places are just hiding clutter! Everything should have a place and my stuff doesn't really. My drawers are just hidden piles of clothes.

Pinterest and I are going to become the best of friends in a bit when it comes to organization. Feel free to follow me over there where I start pinning great ideas for my next place.

What are some of your favorite ways to organize? I'm open to suggestions and links :)

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Excuses Excuses

My weight loss is a journey. That is what I have to keep telling myself. It's the only way I can keep at it. Because deep inside me is that part that says "I want it off right now and if it isn't going to disappear then screw all of it." It is a journey. It just happens to be an incredibly long one if I don't stick with it and do it.

I have tons of excuses. Here are a few:

1. You're going through a divorce.
2. You're having to look for work.
3. You're having to look for daycare.
4. That sushi looks really good.
5. It's just one piece of cake.
6. I'll get right back to it after this...

They go on and on, but all they do is just make the journey longer. I guess it is going to come down to how much longer do I want this journey to take. I have set goals before to reach before a certain date and it doesn't work. Because if I don't make the goal I set for myself then I self sabotage and gain a couple of pounds back.

I try to make activity goals and those don't seem to work either. I'm really gung ho about them in the beginning and then other things get in the way. Here are a few of those:

1. I don't have time.
2. My favorite program is on.
3. I'm too tired.
4. It's too early.
5. I just took a shower.
6. It's raining out.

I need to realize that no matter what I'm doing there is some way that I can work in some kind of activity even if it is getting up and walking in place while I watch my favorite TV program. There is all of the time in the world to watch those, and for those minutes wasted sitting I could be up walking in place just so that I'm doing something.

I need to release these excuses and move on and instead of saying "I can't" I need to start saying "I can."

What are some of your excuses? What's holding you back?

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

The Writing's Been Good

The writing has been pretty good lately. I have been able to get down crazy amounts of pages of hand written journal. I have been able to take writing prompts and run with them. Where has this part of my brain been in the past six or so years. It seems like I could never do this much writing before. It's like someone has pulled a plug and everything just started oozing out.

I have also been going crazy on Twitter lately too. I'm surprised no one has told me to shut up yet. But twitter is just that kind of place where everyone and no one is listening all at the same time.

There is a website called Writers Write and they give amazing advice and writing prompts. I follow them on Facebook and Pinterest and here lately on Twitter. Looking through their writing prompts that they post on Pinterest early yesterday morning just made something click in my head. My mind is turned on and I'm so happy for it.

Writing Old School Style
I have also found that I am able to write with more focus when I'm not on the computer doing my first draft. I always seem to get sidetracked. Because there is Twitter, Facebook, and Pinterest. They are all distractions. Another great website that I have going in the background when I've been writing today is Coffitivity. What it basically does is give background noise to make it sound like you are sitting in a coffee shop without actually having to be in a coffee shop. Now if I could just remember to brew a cuppa before I started my writing I probably would be better off!

I want this phase to continue. I am happy when I'm producing something. I have this problem though. I'm very flighty. Something else will pop up like my unfinished crochet project that is almost done and I'll drop everything else. But I need to get that finished so I can show it off too. :)

If you write what is your favorite method? Do you like pen and paper, laptop, or a typewriter (do they even make those anymore?)?